theres obviously something wrong with my picture hosting.my guess is that i havent renewed my membership.okay whatever.

been studying for my exams.there is so much to read that sometimes i dont really know where to begin.

constantly i am reminded to blog but then again i figured that the purpose of blogging(for me that is) is if i have something interesting to tell. so being that i have my exams now and nothing interesting happens to me during the course of it, hence...the empty blog. sigh...

in a few weeks time ill be flying back to msia. im not sure whether thats a good thing or not. personally i feel that its a very depressing place for me. i was kinda lucky to come to uk at a point of time where a change of environment was the best for me. maybe thats why its been so much easier for me to put down the past and get on with life. maybe thats why everyone sees me as someone with no problems whatsoever.

coming over to uk made my moms death so easy to get by. but i guess the real test is coming my way soon.

i always have this funny policy i abide by where, if i have any problems or sadness i tend to tone down the situation when i tell my friends or anything. i hate those akward silences where no one knows what to say. i mean, i wouldnt know what to say in those situations either, and i dont want to put my friends in that position.

anyways... as the day grows nearer to my departure from uk, the fear gets darker that one day, my grief will be so bad cause its been bottled up so lond that i may not know how to handle it myself.