hey all.
ive been back for two weeks and things are really not good at home. on the outside it seems okay i guess, but on the inside theres alot of emptiness and greif. i wont say its because of my moms death. its actually old issues that has never been solved. plus a whole lot of inner conflict.
the maid ran away just before i got back. so my grandma is suffering cause she does alot of work.truth is she has been suffering in silence for the past 20 years and funnily enough, she finds me to be her outlet. so yeah, i listen to her go on about the family, my mom, my dad and a whole lot of issues.
to add to that, after 7months of seeing each other everyday, i had to depart from my baby for 3 whole months. i always hear this but its nothing compared to experience it. on the night when she left it seemed like eternity for the next day to come. i couldnt sleep. i miss her smell, her smile, her everything. a week has only passed.
i had an account with my picture hosting site and i guess it got deactivated and deleted. so some in fact all of the pictures ive posted cannot be view. pics from this blog on should be fine.
last saturday, my brother held a bday party at home. invited 15 or so people. at the beginning all of them clustered around the tv playing ps2. my dad suddenly brought home 2 ps2 sets for the amusment of everyone. its seems now that one of them was a present to my bro from god know who. how lucky huh?
after sessions of winning eleven and burnout2, the kids had some lunch and then it was time to play football. me and a couple of frens played too. it was fun not to mention HOT.
i lost 100 due to portugal losing. not a good opening bet for me in malaysia, especially since the copa america is just around the corner.
this seems to past slowly around here these days. i wouldnt say i have nothing to do. its just probably whether i want to do it or not.
anyway thats it for now
ive been back for two weeks and things are really not good at home. on the outside it seems okay i guess, but on the inside theres alot of emptiness and greif. i wont say its because of my moms death. its actually old issues that has never been solved. plus a whole lot of inner conflict.
the maid ran away just before i got back. so my grandma is suffering cause she does alot of work.truth is she has been suffering in silence for the past 20 years and funnily enough, she finds me to be her outlet. so yeah, i listen to her go on about the family, my mom, my dad and a whole lot of issues.
to add to that, after 7months of seeing each other everyday, i had to depart from my baby for 3 whole months. i always hear this but its nothing compared to experience it. on the night when she left it seemed like eternity for the next day to come. i couldnt sleep. i miss her smell, her smile, her everything. a week has only passed.
i had an account with my picture hosting site and i guess it got deactivated and deleted. so some in fact all of the pictures ive posted cannot be view. pics from this blog on should be fine.
last saturday, my brother held a bday party at home. invited 15 or so people. at the beginning all of them clustered around the tv playing ps2. my dad suddenly brought home 2 ps2 sets for the amusment of everyone. its seems now that one of them was a present to my bro from god know who. how lucky huh?
after sessions of winning eleven and burnout2, the kids had some lunch and then it was time to play football. me and a couple of frens played too. it was fun not to mention HOT.
i lost 100 due to portugal losing. not a good opening bet for me in malaysia, especially since the copa america is just around the corner.
this seems to past slowly around here these days. i wouldnt say i have nothing to do. its just probably whether i want to do it or not.
anyway thats it for now
